I'm not one to share my paintings openly, even less so when they're not finished, but this one is different. Those of you who come regularly already know what's been going on in my life; those of you in closer contact with me have a more intimate perspective. So I guess that's what moved me to share this piece. Still a work in progress, as well as a work in healing, working like therapeutic milestones. Such things are not meant to be done in a hurry.
The layering of our experiences in this lifetime is but another work in progress, unveiling in the end the composition of our life -our biggest masterpiece. Today has been my third day off all medication; I suffered withdrawal symptoms the first two days. (For such a short time on them, you can tell I'm very sensitive and aware of my body.) Something else that adds strength to my decision of dropping the drugs, all the the inhaler. I had my first of several TFH Kinesiology sessions today, by my friend and instructor, Gladys, and I was able to further explore and confirm some of what I'd already knew. Energy work is fascinating that way -the body doesn't lie.
What came up in todays session:
Feelings:
- abandon
- loss
- grief
- power
Colors:
- blue
- green
- purple
Interesting, eh? Somewhere thru the session I began to cry. I cried like I've never cried in my life, and I wept from places within so deep, so incredibly deep, I can't describe. And then it stopped, as instantly as it began. The associations at the time were maternity/motherhood and sexuality (things for further exploration, consideration, interpretation). By the end of the session I felt incredibly relaxed, refreshed, renewed.
Some of you will have an idea regarding those, but I'll leave that discussion for another day. I'm taking a bath an heading for bed.
*hugs*
you're so beautiful :)
That paiting offers depth and emotion and beauty. You are very talented at expressing yourself both with words and art. If I keep reading your blog maybe some of it will rub off on me.
A beautiful composition of color and form, and even more of spirit and feeling. I, for one, am humbled that you would share yourself with us in such a manner.
Thank you. And thank you for being my friend.
that painting touches me...i'm terrible at expressing how, but i love it. thank you for sharing it.
The painting is beautiful, as is its creatrix.
Thanks for sharing.
Feithy
I find it kind of funny that you are getting off medication at a time that I am finally chosing to get on medication for the first time in my life. I have struggled with great depression (bi-polar and post traumatic stress) most of my life, but just never would be medicated. I just felt that I would just have to be stronger and fight through it. But now I just can't keep going. I need medication to level my moods or I feel like I will go completely mad!
I am so happy that you are making this step, you are a strong and beautiful person. I will be wishing you the best in life. The painting is a wonderful work of art, just as you are.
Such a haunting piece of art. It is interesting that you chose to share THIS piece of beauty within the same post that you listed the words abandon, loss, grief and power. I think those are perfect words to describe the current state of that piece.
What I See:
The figure hints at loss or grief by looking down, the abandonment might be suggested by the suggestion of vulnerability YET the colours are powerful and the fact that the light is focused in front rather than behind the figure speaks of a glimmer of hope in a future of possibility...she simply has to look up to see it.
It is truly stunning. Of course you might be the figure...but it is possible that the figure is only a small part of you. Either way it is indeed stunning.